Monday, April 19, 2010

You Know

you're hardly over someone when the sound of their voice still makes you smile despite the painful memories of "goodbye" or in many cases, "see you later.

You fight the many urges to pick up the phone and call them when the slightest things make you think of them.
He may not text you the same "good morning" but he still finds away to point out the lengths of time between the last time you communicated with him and the present.
You know it's hard to come by a love so genuine like his when the thought of simply saying "I love you" to someone new feels far worse than impossible.
Today, I had a revelation. Despite my plan to move on and let go until the fates decide my future failed terribly because I spoke to him and I wanted nothing more than to be with him, beside him in my bed snuggled up close to him with our breathing synchronized, and peaceful. I wanted to feel his lips brush up against mine one more time reminding me of the confidence he encouraged me to embrace rather than let slip away. I wanted his welcoming arms wrapped all the way around me and no one else and that's when I started to cry because I know nothing would ever amount to that. No one would ever fill that void for me and that scares me....

How do you let go of the perfect true love flawed by a case of horrible timing?

...I guess you don't really have a choice.... so you just do.

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