Although, I've been gone for quite some time... nothing's really changed.
Over time, I tend to grow in one way or another, naturally.
Whether it's physical or emotionally, but this time I'm sad to say I don't know if I can identify any real growth. Granted I'm constantly changing in my ability to react more appropriately to disappointing situations. But, I have a slight issue, I've filled this time with a lot of rambling and babbling in my writing that I've deemed every piece unworthy of being published.
Why am I stuck in a world that leaves me lonely?
Why do all roads lead to success but a lonely one?
Is is true that the only true success that can be achieved is that of individuality and usually any other person involved simply creates distractions and delays in getting there?
sidebar: the sweetest thing I've heard today came from A. Deli, telling me he burned the song, I'm Yours by Jason Mraz to a cd and ran it all the way across Queens to someone he loved just so they could hear it on their way to love... So now, I'm listening to I'm Yours, on repeat cuz it is a really good song.
Sometimes, when I reach for greatness I fail terribly... so is it cheating to reach for mediocrity to make myself feel better? Lol, that was really random.. but relative because right now I'm reaching and reaching but i can't even get close... so that's it for now.
My hiatus continues... maybe a change of scenery is just what i need, Baltimore hopefully in a week for el cumpleanos de mi madre...
Chao!
Over time, I tend to grow in one way or another, naturally.
Whether it's physical or emotionally, but this time I'm sad to say I don't know if I can identify any real growth. Granted I'm constantly changing in my ability to react more appropriately to disappointing situations. But, I have a slight issue, I've filled this time with a lot of rambling and babbling in my writing that I've deemed every piece unworthy of being published.
Why am I stuck in a world that leaves me lonely?
Why do all roads lead to success but a lonely one?
Is is true that the only true success that can be achieved is that of individuality and usually any other person involved simply creates distractions and delays in getting there?
sidebar: the sweetest thing I've heard today came from A. Deli, telling me he burned the song, I'm Yours by Jason Mraz to a cd and ran it all the way across Queens to someone he loved just so they could hear it on their way to love... So now, I'm listening to I'm Yours, on repeat cuz it is a really good song.
Sometimes, when I reach for greatness I fail terribly... so is it cheating to reach for mediocrity to make myself feel better? Lol, that was really random.. but relative because right now I'm reaching and reaching but i can't even get close... so that's it for now.
My hiatus continues... maybe a change of scenery is just what i need, Baltimore hopefully in a week for el cumpleanos de mi madre...
Chao!
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